Awake, O sleeper

Wherefore he saith, Awake thou that sleepest, and arise from the dead, and Christ shall give thee light.  -Eph 5:14 kjv

Dad, I'm sorry.  I didn't want to argue with you.  I just wanted to spend time with you and enjoy that time.  There rarely seemed to be any agreement between you and I concerning things of the spirit.

Wherefore be ye not unwise, but understanding what the will of the Lord is.  -Eph 5:17 kjv

I think my life today gives honor to you and God.  I think to say that I know God's will for my life would be arrogant.

But when anything is exposed and reproved by the light, it is made visible and clear; and where everything is visible and clear there is light.  Therefore he says, Awake, O sleeper, and arise from the dead, and Christ shall shine (make day dawn) upon you and give you light. -Eph 5:13-14 amp

I try not to have secrets.  Granted I don't share everything with everyone.  I didn't keep secrets from you, Dad.  I shared everything with you.

...Awake, O sleeper, and arise from the dead...

Powerful.  That speaks to me.  And yet I don't get it.  It seems in context here it has something to do with keeping my life transparent.

And have no fellowship with the unfruitful works of darkness, but rather reprove them.  For it is a shame event to speak of those things which are done of them in secret.  -Eph 5:11-12

Harsh.  Come on, God, seriously?  If this really is your inspired word, don't you think that's a bit much?  I hate the absolutes.  If I do something of which I am not proud, I have to talk about it.  If I keep it a secret it only grows more powerful.

Whatever.  I don't get it.  The only thing I know for sure is that I don't know anything for sure.